What I see

Cliche alert!: It’s that time of the year again when we make resolutions that we wont keep. And for bloggers such as myself to rant about what to expect in the new year. Well after not writing a word on this darn blog for most of the year, that would be a sorry attempt to keep this blog alive so… let me not waste your time. But what I can do is summarize what I have seen in the past 12 months graciously branded as 2016. I have been living(Feels so good to say that) and this is what I see:

ON GRATITUDE

Apart from a cold and swollen hands (why do hands swell anyway). I haven’t been critically ill in the past 12 months. The gift of life should not be taken for granted.

“Every struggle in your life has shaped you into the person you are today. Be thankful for the hard times, they can only make you stronger.”

ON FAMILY

“Family isn’t always blood. It’s the people in your life who want you in theirs. The ones you accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile, and who love you no matter what.”

Feelings Alert: At my age people (Relatives/Family) still find me awkward,and rude even. And no. I am STILL not making apologies for this.  I still  find this incredibly wrong (Wish I had a megaphone to rant). I wish my parents would be more understanding and trusting of me as a person and come to accept and appreciate that I am what I am. I find trust an essential element in any family. Without trust, we are all just a bunch of people who share the same DNA and continue to be ‘Christmas families’.

What I do Know: I don’t respond very well to hypocrisy and for some reason I smell it about a mile away. Eventually, when I have a small family with a little girl with my eyes and a boy with awesome features his father will be endowed with, I would want, more than anything, to trust and accept them as unique individuals. I want to help them see their worth; achieve their dreams from riding a horse to becoming an insanely weird dancer at the carnival.

ON FRIENDS

ON BOOKS

All hail to the incredible minds that use their experience and words to inspire others. In the past 12 months, I delved into the minds and lives of incredible people. Here are my top 3 reads .

 

•  HUMBLE PIE – GORDON RAMSEY: I know. A rude, loud, jerky and arrogant Gordon Ramsey        comes to mind when you read this 9_9 . To be honest,  I loved this book. I think my greatest satisfaction was to understand where the pathological behavior of Gordon Ramsey comes from. It must have sucked to be him from birth till about the age of 26. Being raised by an abusive father and dealing with his brother’s addiction could not have been easy. Hell, I don’t know how I could have dealt with that. By reading his story, I have come to respect him as a strong-willed person  and to overcome all the hurdles to be where he is truly admirable.

 

 

 

WHY NOT ME  MINDY KALING: I bought this book because I just love Mindy Kaling. After watching the Mindy Project, I was left wondering why haven’t I seen this awesome creature sooner :). It is a thoroughly entertaining book. I always feel like Mindy is on the stage performing some sort of refined stand-up comedy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

• SHUT UP, STOP WHINING AND GET A LIFE – Larry Winget: I don’t read a lot of inspirational/motivational and self-help books. I guess it is probably because I never made that special life changing connection that people speak of. I get the message. We should do more, strive more but this approach does not get to me. I prefer to delicately fish out  the message from people stories. But this… this is just one hell of a book. It is absolutely a kick butt approach to life; and I guess that’s why I have re-read it about 8 times this year. I recommend it for anyone and everyone who at some point feels like they are stuck and believe they can do more to improve their lives.

ON MEN

Guy number one was kinda perfect but only in my head. Just two days after meeting, he flaunts his girlfriend on social bringing our ‘supposed’ relationship to sudden death.Guy number 2 was a 30 year-old man-child. Loud and arrogant. Strongly believed that by hinting at how much money he has, a girl will jump at his proposal. Well some would, if you have zero personality and if money is the only thing you have to offer. He was floppy about it and I asked him to sit in a corner and think about his life. If I go on this will slowly turn into a short story and not a blog post.

ON CAREER

I see growth. I see Graduate school in the horizon.

ON MARRIAGE

Still not thrilled about picking one human and settling down.

ON THE FUTURE

I see hope which is more than I could say last year.

Falling

She  felt it all along. The pain, hopelessness, desperation and vanity of it all. She felt it trickle like ice-cold water on warm skin. Like heat, melting her being and molding her into this character, this person she barely recognized but she just sat there and watched. The transformation consumed her, broke her down to the core leaving the once belittled sentiments, cynical criticisms and perceptions of others to guide her path.

She had lost it all, her faith, her hope, her self-worth and most importantly her very being. It had become incomprehensible for her life to cross paths with such fate. Was it meant to teach her an invaluable life lesson or to simply awaken her spirit to the realization of a greater destiny?

All the while she tried to diligently live, love and laugh in all the wrong ways and in the end it didn’t really matter. It was memorable, unforgettable actually but it was one of those memories that felt stolen. Like it wasn’t quite right; in timing, places and the people. For a split moment it made her feel wanted, loved, deserving and beautiful but just for a moment. But what good is of love, desire or joy if it doesn’t last a lifetime?