What I see

Cliche alert!: It’s that time of the year again when we make resolutions that we wont keep. And for bloggers such as myself to rant about what to expect in the new year. Well after not writing a word on this darn blog for most of the year, that would be a sorry attempt to keep this blog alive so… let me not waste your time. But what I can do is summarize what I have seen in the past 12 months graciously branded as 2016. I have been living(Feels so good to say that) and this is what I see:


Apart from a cold and swollen hands (why do hands swell anyway). I haven’t been critically ill in the past 12 months. The gift of life should not be taken for granted.

“Every struggle in your life has shaped you into the person you are today. Be thankful for the hard times, they can only make you stronger.”


“Family isn’t always blood. It’s the people in your life who want you in theirs. The ones you accept you for who you are. The ones who would do anything to see you smile, and who love you no matter what.”

Feelings Alert: At my age people (Relatives/Family) still find me awkward,and rude even. And no. I am STILL not making apologies for this.  I still  find this incredibly wrong (Wish I had a megaphone to rant). I wish my parents would be more understanding and trusting of me as a person and come to accept and appreciate that I am what I am. I find trust an essential element in any family. Without trust, we are all just a bunch of people who share the same DNA and continue to be ‘Christmas families’.

What I do Know: I don’t respond very well to hypocrisy and for some reason I smell it about a mile away. Eventually, when I have a small family with a little girl with my eyes and a boy with awesome features his father will be endowed with, I would want, more than anything, to trust and accept them as unique individuals. I want to help them see their worth; achieve their dreams from riding a horse to becoming an insanely weird dancer at the carnival.




All hail to the incredible minds that use their experience and words to inspire others. In the past 12 months, I delved into the minds and lives of incredible people. Here are my top 3 reads .



  •  HUMBLE PIE – GORDON RAMSEY: I know. A rude, loud, jerky and arrogant Gordon Ramsey        comes to mind when you read this 9_9 . To be honest,  I loved this book. I think my greatest satisfaction was to understand where the pathological behavior of Gordon Ramsey comes from. It must have sucked to be him from birth till about the age of 26. Being raised by an abusive father and dealing with his brother’s addiction could not have been easy. Hell, I don’t know how I could have dealt with that. By reading his story, I have come to respect him as a strong-willed person  and to overcome all the hurdles to be where he is truly admirable.





WHY NOT ME  MINDY KALING: I bought this book because I just love Mindy Kaling. After watching the Mindy Project, I was left wondering why haven’t I seen this awesome creature sooner :). It is a thoroughly entertaining book. I always feel like Mindy is on the stage performing some sort of refined stand-up comedy.









  • SHUT UP, STOP WHINING AND GET A LIFELarry WingetI don’t read a lot of inspirational/motivational and self-help books. I guess it is probably because I never made that special life changing connection that people speak of. I get the message. We should do more, strive more but this approach does not get to me. I prefer to delicately fish out  the message from people stories. But this… this is just one hell of a book. It is absolutely a kick butt approach to life; and I guess that’s why I have re-read it about 8 times this year. I recommend it for anyone and everyone who at some point feels like they are stuck and believe they can do more to improve their lives.


Guy number one was kinda perfect but only in my head. Just two days after meeting, he flaunts his girlfriend on social bringing our ‘supposed’ relationship to sudden death.Guy number 2 was a 30 year-old man-child. Loud and arrogant. Strongly believed that by hinting at how much money he has, a girl will jump at his proposal. Well some would, if you have zero personality and if money is the only thing you have to offer. He was floppy about it and I asked him to sit in a corner and think about his life. If I go on this will slowly turn into a short story and not a blog post.


I see growth. I see Graduate school in the horizon.


Still not thrilled about picking one human and settling down.


I see hope which is more than I could say last year.


Be Present, Be Here


I don’t have enough clothes. I wish I had her fancy job, this one is just too meh… I want a better phone, this one doesn’t have enough selfie power, *at least for me*. My life would be so much easier if I could just get my bangs right. Life for most of us is a catastrophe without our eyes glued to our screens, our mirrors to constantly affirm our beauty and our arrogance just to simply bolster our entitlement. After all, we deserve all that life has to offer but really according to who?

A friend invited me to a hospital visit this last Sunday and I gladly agreed. Together with some friends we were to visit some kids . I thought it was a great idea to help out and get a chance to take really great snap shots of their work. We got to the hospital about 30 minutes late but everything played out just fine, we were ushered into the ward by one of the nurses, her smile told it all she was glad we were there. The kids were not around, they had gone for the Sunday morning service. We stuck around the ward chatting and getting to know one another.

From a distance, we heard the delightful giggles of children. I walked out the hallway to see them all excited. I was quick to notice two of them were on crutches with their right legs amputated from the knee below. Their faces did not bear pain but joy and gratitude for an extra day with a beating heart.

“Realize deeply that the present moment is all you have. Make the NOW the primary focus of your life.”
Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment

They all walked in and said hi then they rushed to their nurse and you could instantly tell that this was their family. Their playroom had sky blue curtains with Mickey Mouse curtains running from one end to another. Ladybird story books were on the table and the telly was on. We gathered for a word of prayer and soon after the nurse introduced us to the kids. Apart from being kids, all the bright innocent faces staring at us had one other thing in common. They had cancer.

For a moment I had a Universe-is-trying-to-tell-me-something moment when I remembered that the series I was watching at the same time was Chasing Life. I kept thinking, but they are just children, they have their entire lives ahead of them. They should get a chance to grow their hair long and unkempt, roll around in grass and play in the mud. But as life had it, they were here, now and they are incredibly strong children, stronger than I think I will ever be.

The ravaging thoughts never interrupted their love for life. It was play time they were more than happy to show us their playground. They knew every inch of the big hospital, it was their home. They played like their lives depended on it. For some of us, it was painful, to watch so much life gushing from the little ones. It was then that it dawns on you that a beating heart, perfect eyesight , a fully functional body basically is worth so much more than the material things we desire.

They say the eyes are the window to our soul. This proved to be true when the parents arrived in the afternoon. You could see a mother’s love… and pain all in one concoction. As human beings, we lose track of what actually matters in life. Moments like these help us realize that our existence is a blessing. I’m sure most of you won’t read to the end of this long post but thanks for starting 🙂 Live in the Moment.